Look, it's quite simple. Despite Shroud's going on about "anyone who has been here enough time", I very much doubt that he's been here more than two weeks himself, so maybe he can't be expected to know this. And though many of you do know it, I'll say it anyway.
Exactly what is going on here now we saw on the main board a month ago. A post by me - a dozen posts by people saying "fuck off, you're a queer" "fuck off, you think you're better than us" "GTFO Alex Reynolds". There was a big fight about the identity of the board. Jeff intervened. I won. You lost. Simple as that.
I've certainly never before SAID it as simply or as bluntly as that. I've tried to be very polite. When Room 101 was created and all the people I'd been fighting with went meekly away from the main board and came here, I made a particular point of not being vindictive. Posts appeared on the main board attacking certain people who had attacked me. I took no part in them and asked the OP not to do that kind of stuff. I wanted the "main-board" people to be able to get on with their stuff, you to get on with yours - because I'm afraid we have nothing in common. Please let no one say I "attacked Lia", because the Lia post of a couple of days ago was an affectionate, friendly post written in a spirit of harmless, gentle liking for the girl.
Now, however, I see that someone here has decided to post something on this side of the board deliberately linking my name with the name of a pedophile whom, as I say, I condemned as such long before any of you did - condemned, in fact, at a time when many of you were treating him as a friend and a good guy.
In other words, you people have decided, on your side, NOT to be polite, friendly and non-vindictive about this. You want to start fighting again.
Fine. You lost last time. And you'll lose this time. You asked for it and you'll get it.
First of all I would like to thank you, Jeff, for creating this little nightmarish haven. -She- told me about your plans, and I immediately thought it was the best solution.
Though some might find it hard to believe, I feel very protective of most females, especially younger girls. Lia especially triggered my need to protect through the openness about her vulnerability that her pictures so clearly radiated. And that was all I knew about her when I first started talking to her.
What about Lia is it that lit the spark that caused my obsession to go from a smoldering ember to a raging inferno? I would say several things. The first time I saw her I was overwhelmed by her beauty. I don't think anyone can deny that Lia is a beautiful young woman, but that isn't enough for me to become obsessed with someone.
What I discovered was that beneath this veneer of vulnerability and visage of insanity was a very bright young woman – not without faults, but no one is perfect – whose natural affinity for magickal workings immediately aroused in me a desire to learn more. I started finding signs in her pictures, signs that showed certain traits of her that corresponded very well with the archetype of Lilith/BABALON.
Lia represents, in her pictures, the perfect ambivalent mix of Eros and Thanatos, sex and death. She also therefore represents Lilith, the Dark Mother and BABALON, the Scarlet Woman and Sacred Whore. Her pictures offer to us glimpses into a world of nightmares and dreams – the realms of Lilith.
Having worked on establishing a more personal relationship with Lilith/BABALON for quite some time, I could not help but wonder if this was a sign, or if I was simply imagining things. Then she revealed to me that her natural hair color was an auburn red, and there was the last piece of the puzzle. Could she be a Scarlet Woman, my Scarlet Woman? I did not know, but I wanted to find out.
And here we are. Does my obsession harm her in any way? I do not believe so, and if it did I would back away immediately. I do not wish to bring her any harm, and so far at least I would say that me being a part of her life has not been detrimental to her physical or mental health in any way. I have done my best to stop her from harming herself. I have done my best to prove to her that I am trustworthy. I have done my best to be as much of a friend to her as I can. I have never been disrespectful towards her. But I will ask her again tomorrow, if she feels that I am a negative energy in her life.
