Look I know where you're at. Just don't do this, not like this. You'll get a record and you don't want that.
If you want to explore, and I am not saying anything, just remember you are not alone, and there is safety.
You're wonderful, and you're alive, and you deserve every little bit of happiness that the universe has to offer to anyone, no matter who or what you look like. Never forget that.
I wish you could understand that you do matter, but this is not what you need. Leave this place, you are finally getting a life, a real one, healthy and sane. Stay away from anything related to her, it will only leave you broken again.
